Friday, December 31, 2004
NYE
wat i did today (thur)...
work, induction, more work...
uncle bought me a new digi cam. yipee...thx...=) n i bought a new wallet for myself..."chihuahua", u still owe me a bdae present...haha...u said u'll get me a wallet...so whr is it???
lala land soon...i'm so tired having to wake up early this wk...when i mean early, it's lk 645am for a 830am meeting...i wan to be a fresh fish! learnt it fr the workshop on mon.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:44 am
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Thursday, December 30, 2004
lotsa catching up to do!
ha staff meting on wed...yday lah considering today is thus. ha...u see wat i mean. when a person is too tired, she doesnt even know what's she toking abt. yup...many datelines to meet next yr...hope i'll not miss any. keeping my fingers crossed. know of my duties today...so will try to see to whatever i can do these days b4 sch starts. argh...so much work n iwant to start all at the same time. ha...guess more work is finding its way to me...well juz take it as it comes. so tired. went popular to get stationery n assessment bks. i feel lk a student again but this time i'm not. ha...i want to go lala land soon. to see u there cos i know u're there le...hey wait for me...i'm coming...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:10 am
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
aiyoyo...
i woke up to a rainy morning...had to collect gown today...but b4 tt i was online w sw.
sw: so when u gog to start tchin?
adele: 3 jan
adele: collecting my gown later
sw: wat gown
adele: wedding gown?
adele: haha
sw: wahahaha
sw: reali ah?
adele: yah n u're invited too
sw: so wher is e place?
adele: fullerton
sw: when?
sw: how many tables?
adele: sori was d/c
adele: 20 table
sw: when???
swis now Offline
to be continued...
met sarah at tm. we were supposed to get stationery ONLY. in the end, we had dinner at sakae. yup the newly open one at cs. sobz sobz...no prawn dishes...but i ate 4 plates of fried tofu. plus we ate so much tt it was value for money. oh bro joined us too cos ...(long story. u sure wont be interested) shortly he left w my sis. so wat abt me n sarah? shop lor...when the 2 shopping queens come tog, wat else could they be doing??? haha...
things i bought...
1. CD - Retro Countdown
2. a set of black bikini
3. a floral skirt fr G2000
4. a working bag
listening to the cd now too...done with disc 1. 5 more to go. shall continue tmr. meanwhile it's time to go lala land le. all cos it's another early day tmr for meeting...
lesson learnt:
we are gd shopping companions...too gd to be true...when our power combines, the holes we burnt is even bigger. muz try to ctl...try harder next time...hoho...we muz!
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:38 am
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Monday, December 27, 2004
an inspiring talk
attended a talk at sch today. the speaker can really ratter well. he's a gd speaker who always make the audience laugh. he managed to catch the attn of most by relating to everyday's experiences, something which is close to everyone's heart. n he understood our fears of presentation so for the day, we were not required to fo any presentations but instead we had sharing sessions in our respective grp then shared it w the rest by pasting our written work in the rm n having us to walk ard so as to allow for interaction. m/o there were many breaks too. eat n eat n eat...gd welfare...more work to be done
wat i've learnt today:
1. education is the profession of the heart
my past days entries...lazy to type...but i spent the sunday w 5588. shop n eat n gossip...most gals' fav past time...plus i haf a nice dad who fetched me hm fr orchard...yah u may call me a spoilt brat but so wat! whose dad is as nice as mine? haha...u tell me lor...i'm the ultimate daddy's n mummy's gal...till i meet [him]...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:34 pm
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Thursday, December 23, 2004
a peek at my...
today...
finally got to wake up late today. met elaine at bugis. lunch was at sketches. ha...
mr cute is still working there. the last time i was there w elaine, he was still helping out in the backgrd but now he's serving us already. ha...he's so charming, esp his smile n his all rdy attitude to serve customers. he's always at all smiles. ha...i had an enjoyable lunch. u'll know y right! i'll be back there soon for more meals. haha...walked to suntec. elaine had to get presents. me too. for my cousins lor. late tea at citylink. it's been a long time since i last ate ice-cream fr a cone. hm sweet hm for dinner. arent u surprised tt i'm back hm early today? at least my family is. haha...
yday...
was at granny's place since 7+am. so can u imagine wat time i woke up. felt so tired. but i managed to complete my cross-stitch. left oni the outilne. yipee...caught a nap when i reached hm only to wake up for dinner. mum cooked dinner today...so yummy!
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:13 pm
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Happy Bdae, Kelvin!
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:55 am
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
C21 - You are the one
saw u online for a while then u log off le. this song reminds me of u. u asked me to listen to it so i m listening to it now. here's the lyrics.
It's early in the morning
soon another day will dawn
I can't wait to feel your arms
around me again
I believe that we could
lay down the world
together we could live
the dream that never ends
Open up the door
just a little more
baby let me in
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go, You are the one
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart
Everytime I near you
time is standing still
there's nothing you can't fix
with your heavenly smile
I would never leave you
my love is for life
taking things for granted
was never my style
Just give a little love
say you'll never stop
I'll do anything
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go, You are the one
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
If you'll give me your heart
And I'll do anything
if you give me your heart
ahh ahh yeah
I'll do anything
You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
give a little love
say you'll never stop
and I'll do anything
I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart
ohhhhh ohhhhh
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
Where ever you go
you are the one
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:25 pm
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another spending day
how do u think a piglet n shopping queen spend her day??? here she goes...
woke up at noon to get lunch for her bro n sis. changed n met zs at tm. went str to mng. chose the top which i want n zs's collegue made the resevation for me. ha...save some $ here. had a quick lunch at the foodcourt b4 meeting sarah n linda. met justin too to go orchard.
S.Q: excuse me, do u haf a new pair for this?
salesgal: sori, this's the last pair.
S.Q: oh ok, thx. i'll take this pair but can u clean it for me?
wat did S.Q get? make a guess lor.
S.Q. walked into another store.
S.Q: hey tt halter is so nice.
Pingcess: yah. go try lor
S.Q: ok.
so she took 2 sizes into the fitting rm.
at the fitting rm, shouting to pingcess.
S.Q: how is this?
Pingcess: try a size smaller
so S.Q tried a size smaller n decided to get it. gosh...spend money again...
haf u guessed wat did S.Q get in the first shop? a pair of sunglasses...haha...
S.Q is so poor now...her resources is running low. whr's her rich prince? nah she juz needs a soulmate...haha
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:39 pm
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monday is not so blue aft all
i was up at 6am on a monday morning n was at granny's place at 730. yup went over to look aaft her since aunt has to work. due to the language barrier, we had little conversation. she watched me do my cross-stitch instead. left granny's place at noon to meet bro n sis. ha the shopping spree thus began n the hole in my pocket is getting bigger. lunch was at ikea, did some shopping at queensway before taking a cab to paragon. sis bought jeans skirt n shorts. hmmm wanted to get something for bro but no nice shirt leh. or it's not wat he's looking for. wat did i get for myself? u wouldnt want to know...2 tops n some stationery. little? ha...overall expenses still high...
here comes the best part of the day! met my jcrc frenz for dinner. those tt r still active...who else? clifford, moses, kelvin, niquole, sok yuin, wan ting n me...dinner at fish n co n drink at balaclava (highly recommended). as usu, we can really tok, crap n joke...nice hall frenz i've made...wan ting was held up cos of work. kc too...let's see wat else can i rem...oh the joke abt wan ting...haha...her supplier, production line, ...ha...wat a laugh! wanted to chill out at equinox but it was crowded so we settled dwn at balaclava. drinks was on clifford. thx pres...i had my lychee martini...the music was great...they sang "a little respect" (my fav), "dancing queen", "she'll be loved" n many more. i prefer their slow version of retro...haha...took some fotos...waiting for moses to upload them...u'll see a lobster (tt's me lor) i'm always red whenever i drink...n mind u...i'm not drunk! oh yah...better not mention anymore if not they'll tease me again. yah they were the few ppl who saw me get drunk, brought me back to hall n stayed w me thru the nite. thx..but i haf to pay a px for tt...the many suanings i'll get whenever we go drinking tog...more talks this time abit serious w topics on life insurances n society's perceptions on gays n les. recently this topic is in the newspapers too. abt having permission to hold some party or something lk tt. as we talked, time slipped by n soon it was time for us to leave. sobz...so fun chatting w u guys...the many laughters we had...meet up soon k...yup on nye...miss u =)
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:54 am
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Monday, December 20, 2004
to my 2 grandmas
spent my sat at ah ma's hse as usu. when we reached hm, mum received a ph fr aunt saying tt granny has fallen ill n asked us to go see her. but since it was too late into the nite so we went to see her this morning. so sad...both my grandmas have grown old. n they're always complaining of pains here n there. sigh...well aft the usu morning prayers, we went to granny's hse (mum's mother). she has fallen sick. worse she's crying. always saying tt her time is up...n she's rdy to go...y muz they always say such things? it juz pains my heart. but there's a communication barrier between us. she speaks oni hainanese but though i can understand, i speak w much difficulty. we went to do some shopping while mum n the rest brought her to see a doc. well wat could the doc advise except to prescribe med...given her age...she's afraid to go hospital too, fearing tt we may juz leave her alone there. when she's back fr the doc, we had a hard time getting her to take her med. she'll juz vomit. well we haf to leave cos dad's fetching ah ma (dad's mother) to see a doc. i'm closer to ah ma cos she takes care of me during my early childhood yrs. ah ma will bring me to the bedok mkt. ah ma always buys me toys whenever we pass by the grocery shop. any small toy would juz cheer me up. haha...i'm such a easy contented gal. hoho...u know lor old ppl always haf difficuly in walking. sigh...the more med they take to cure an illness, there's always the side effects. ah ma's taking med to strengthen her bones but it causes wind in her stomach thus sometimes chest pains too. sigh...y r old ppl so weak? it juz pains my heart to see both my grandmas in pain yet i cant do anything to lessen it except to keep them company whenever i'm free. to show them tt i care for them n i love them v much. tt i want them to stay healthy to enjoy life.
ah ma: i thank you for taking care of me when i was young. now tt i've grown up, it's my duty to take care of u too. dun worry, i'll go see u every sat. u're my dearest grandma. ha u'll live to see me get married...u muz ok...i know u will...
granny: u always wears a happy smile when i go visit u. i want to see ur smile again. though i cant speak ur dialect, but i still wanna tell u tt i care for u n hope tt u'll get well soon.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:21 am
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Saturday, December 18, 2004
it crossed my mind
someone once said this...
once bitten twice shy
twice bitten nv try
thrice bitten go hm n cry
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:15 pm
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Friday, December 17, 2004
"chihuahua"!
if u haven been talking to someone for a long time n suddenly the both of u r talking again, how would u feel? excited, nervous, happy, scared...??? well at least i feel happy cos at i know tt we're still frenz aft all no matter wat happened in the past. the feeling is juz sweet tt i can find myself smiling away...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:05 am
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Thursday, December 16, 2004
out of boredom
hmmm i was clearing my mail juz now when i came across this which winn had emailed some time back. yup it's v touching n so i'm sharing it w u. do take some time to read it. it's v true n it's happening in our everyday life.
what i learnt fr this:
no matter how busy u r, dun take ur loved one for granted. always treasure him...shower him w love, care n concern always. every small gesture means alot. it'll juz warm his heart. so do a little sweet act everyday to show him how much u love him.
When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms.
The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene of ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.
Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.
I moved Dew's hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate anymore.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. Ive got something to tell you, I said.
She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! .
At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn t want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.
I didn t tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.
She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I m serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card.
I smiled and wrote,
I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
-- "the warmth of that hug and how wonderful it felt to have someone hug you first thing in the morning. "
i love hugs... more so than kisses or anything else. never underestimate the power of a good hug.
i love hugs. full hugs. dreamy. the kind that says "i like you." the kind that says "thank you for being around". the kind that says - stay.
when was the last time you hug someone? the last time someone hugged you?
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:32 pm
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girl power
linda, me n sarah
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:57 am
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happy bdae sarah!
sigh stupid com keep hanging. muz be bro's games...sigh...wat did i write juz now...
oh i slept thru the day except tt i woke up for meals. yah i'm a piggy but it's oni during the hols n wkends tt i get to slp late. haha...so let me enjoy while it's still hols...
the fun n laughters always begin at nite. met sarah, linda, roy n justin at bubble tea to celebrate sarah's n justin's bdae. as usu we (me n sarah) were up to no gd...but it's bdae mah so muz haf fun. so while roy n justin were away, we took the opportunity to mix a drink. haha...this time, it's water, chilli, mayo n pepper. who's going to get the drink? make a guess lor. played o-ya-beh-ya-som. n it's our dear roy who took the first dirnk. ha all cos he loves white. the game went on n it's still roy. oh gosh, y him? he's not the bdae boy...well sarah supposed to haf the last slice of cake but she was let off n as u've guessed, roy aka piggy ate the last slice. haha...oh we took fotos too but we forgot to take a grp foto. time files n roy left for camp. we wanted to go to the open-area at tm but it was closed so we hang out at starbucks. somehow as the nite passes, we felt tired so i suggested we went hm. yup...so much fun esp the drinking the mixture part n singing of bdae song. we sang so loud tt the whole shop heard us. haha...well it's a happy occasion mah.
y m i feeling tired when i slp so much? overslp? shrugs...so it's time to go lala land...
last but not least
Happy Bdae, Sarah!
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:22 am
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004
the shop shop shop n sing sing sing tuesday
the post release of results celebration began today. ha...i'm going to make u envious! had mac bfast w mum, sis n bro. then the sleepy me came hm to steal a nap b4 meeting sarah for lunch. wanted to haf western food near her place but the stall wasnt rdy for business. so we went back to her hse instead. hmmm i used to be afraid of lola (her pet doggy). now whenever i see her, i'll juz let her lick my hand. a form of greeting i guess. ha...yup, i'm no longer afraid even when lola comes near me. yipee...we left shortly. surprisingly, lola didnt follow when sarah closed the door. so poor thing...being left at hm again...well done lola, u know u shouldnt follow. but leaving u alone at hm really breaks sarah's heart.
the prog of the day began here. we wanted to ktv at our usu place but little did we know tt it had shifted to apollo ctr. we made a trip there then. however we were late cos we had lunch so our reservation had been given up to another customer. all cos the receptionist took dwn the wrg contact no n thus failed to contact us. boo...so we took a bus n headed to orchard instead. ha our 1st stop was heeren. i bought a shirt for my cousin. next stop was tangs. gotten a white bag for sarah n some cosmetics for myself. wow time flies n it was time to haf dinner. dinner was at nooch b4 we left to meet justin for the ktv session at tm. hey my dinner was great. the thai fried beef noodles was delicious. ha the ktv session was fr 8pm to 1am. we sang many songs. hmmm my chinese is so poor tt i cant even read the chinese words. muz do something abt it. i could oni sang those old songs during sec days which i memorised the lyrics. so pathetic right? but wat to do...nv touch chinese for 6 yrs le. oh gosh...we sang till they chased us away. came hm in cab...
lessons learnt today:
1. it's such a nice feeling spending ur own $. at least no one nags at u. haha. but i burnt a hole in my pocket. spent close to $300 today...oops...more of such days to come cos there's still many things i wanna buy...anybody interested in contributing to the think-aholic aka graduated nanny's fund? haha...let me know k...
2. time to revise chinese
3. slp early. no more late nites out. it's not gd for complexion. haha...well to compensate for it, i drink lotsa water n eat more fruits. eh but wat's the logic? i oso dunno. to maintain a healthy lifestyle i guess. haha...but i've got something to confess. i'm going zouk. it's mambo...my fav...so it's another late nite out again!
4. oops i did it again!
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
2:53 am
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Monday, December 13, 2004
on cloud 9 = over the moon
i was surfing the internet when i suddenly haf this impulse to check if the results r out. so with shaking fingers, i clicked on portal, login n gosh...i was prompted to type in my matirc no. my heart beat faster n faster. my mind went blank. the page loaded n gosh...ha...i cleared all. tears rolled dwn my cheeks. since i was on msn with sarah, she was the first to know my results. before tt we were still planning for tmr. haha...can any prog will be juz fine. hee...aft tt i made many ph calls...mum, dad, sis, shan, elaine, xin, yi, fred. sms uncle n "chihuahua" too. oso sms cindy, kiat, eki, nic to inform them tt the results r out. by now, my tears have dried up. i'm sharing my joy with u now b4 i'm going out to cut my hair. hee...
many thx fr the support i haf fr my family. i love u
not to forget my dear frenz (sarah, shan, elaine, xin) who stood by me all this while giving me much encouragement. not leaving out san n fred.
thx "chihuahua" for always asking me to look ahead n not looking back. cos aft all the dwns will come the ups. when u look ahead, u're much happier. u're so right...i'm juz too stubborn to listen to u in the past. sori...if i could turn back time, i will...
ha time to get rdy to go out...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
3:10 pm
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the blue monday
went out for dinner yday w justin n roy. caught the remaining star awards. bathed then slp cos bro was playing cs.
nice weather to slp late today. woke up in time to get lunch. loaded enuf songs so tt i can change it whenever i want. now on msn w zs. elaine left much earlier.
i'm feeling very very dwn now. results will be out soon. real soon...mayb i should heed elaine's advice to go for prayers session later.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:14 pm
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there's 2 bdae gals today
Zhiyin, happy 23rd bdae!
Bijin, happy 21st bdae!
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:11 pm
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
love and relationships
my family and i went for our weekly monring prayers. aft the prayers, the leader delivered his speech. the topic for today was love abd relationships. here is a summary of what he said.
love is not 2 ppl gazing at each other but 2 ppl looking ahead tog in the same direction.
love is nv say gdbye.
love is 2 elephants' trunks touching.
love is abt developing a strong individual identity.
true love is complex.
a relationship is a source of hopes and inspirations.
true love should ignite our lives.
love is blind, tt is y sometimes we're confused.
love is abt respect.
in life, we have to overcome sorrows and move forward.
every parting has its reasons.
scars may not heal but as long as we advance, there's new hopes.
thus a new life begins.
life is full of obstacles.
we can overcome these by having strong faith.
life is full of challenges.
having strong faith will give u the drive and motivation to move on.
ha though the leader talked abt much more but these words left me to reflect.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
5:14 pm
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Saturday, December 11, 2004
the 1st prawn i caught
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:38 pm
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a messed up friday
noon - evening: zs was in tm to meet a client n since she was haeding back to orchard so caught a ride w her. soon it was raining heavily. thomson rd was flooded. i alighted at ps n caught the train to meet 5588 at orchard. as usu, we took a long time in choosing a bdae prsent. dinner was at nooch. had prawn ramen n my fav peach orange malba. so shiok! sigh...a misunderstanding arose. i was upset n disappointed. the incident took place thru sms over dinner. i tried to hide my expressions n guess none noticed it. mayb it's stress...mayb it's juz me...the over-sensitive me, the over-reacted me tt sparked off the incident. words can so much of a misunderstanding. i knew i had to clear this bad air. indeed i did cos i didnt wanna risk losing tt precious friendship which has come so far aft so many yrs. we've been thru a much worse incident (my wrg doing again) but i m glad tt we are still best of frenz. thx, gal...for standing by me thru my bad n gd times. sori for having such a lousy fren lk me. i'm juz so senseless...braving thru these bad weather, i hope our friendship is still going strong. rem we look forward to the future tog, bringing our kids along for our high tea, the many retail therapies yet to come...we're still doing those tog right?
nite: met sarah n linda to go newsrm bar. we stayed in the car at the carpark while waiting for the rest. it wasnt a great nite to chiong. i hate the music there. juz simply not my kind of music. left shortly aft 1/2 glass of drink. went prawn~ing w sarah instead. my first time k...aft sarah invited me to join her a no of times. actually i wasnt feeling gd on our way to jurong. i was sad...a sinking feeling...i wanted to cry but no tears came dwn...guess it's telling me tt i shouldnt be crying. i felt so much better aft i caught my 1st prawn. cant control my excitement tt it took me quite a while tt i was screaming. hee...ppl turned n looked at me. so paiseh. the live prawn was struggling to get free. i dunno wat to do since it's my 1st time. but sarah came to my rescue. thx gal, u're a best pal tt i can ever asked for. always so nice to me...no luck aft tt...
in lala land at 5am
managed to drag myself out of bed at 920. my alarm clock snoozed for 20min. left hse at 10am. met my dear tk frenz. having missed the previous gatherings, i was eager to meet them. they are the first few frenz i made during my sec sch days. 10 yrs of friendship...wow! i was of little help in the kitchen. yup we were at yoek's place preparing lunch...i did some washing though. ha...lunch was some fried tofu, marshed potato. though simple but it tasted great. it was a chit-chatting session. taking turns to update one another abt our lives. it was a great conversation. feel so great to be with the gals again. i miss the girls' sch yrs i had. yah i changed alot...i can say tt i have grown up but still discovering abt my life. the ups n dwns i had shape the present me. the coming ups n dwns will allow me to discover more abt myself n to make me a better person (i'm certain abt it cos ppl learn fr their mistakes). held a bdae celebration for our bdae gal, zhiyin...then it was time to leave...nice seeing u gals today...i m looking forward to our next gathering. fiona n huiling, u muz turn up k. yoek, u were a great host. will collect my watch the next time we meet.
evening: dinner@ ah ma's place.
now: heading to lala land...had oni 4 hrs of slp. my eyes can hardly stay open...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
8:50 pm
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Friday, December 10, 2004
ladies' nite
hmm dunno how to begin but somehow i shall start...
morning: dragged out of bed by mum. needed to help her clear the old books fr the store room to make space for the new ones. we were doen at abt noon n it was lunch then the usu hse cleaning lor.
noon: managed to catch a short nap.
evening: @ jln kayu w my family for a feast of prata n rice.
nite: met my nie frenz for dinner in a restaurant at raffles hotel. my first time there...ordered salmon, my fav...i'm always a fussy eater...the marshed potato was great. had some catching up w the gals cos the last time we met was on children's day. yup tt's lk 2 mths back...more updates n gossips thru the nite...off to do some shopping at citylink b4 i left to meet sarah n linda.
late nite: gave sarah a call cos i knew she's out. in the end, i met linda n her at cine for a movie - national treasure. highly recommended movie by me...it's so nice cos it's one of those movies which makes u wanna follow closely to the plot. *thumbs up* had fishballs for supper b4 the movie. oh yah...dun drink the fishball soup cos it simply contained too much msg tt made me feel funny on my cheeks n hands. oni felt it aft sarah told me so. yup, i'm a slow reactor(right word?)...n one more thing, made a new fren today. he's daniel...
wee morning: sarah drove us hm today! yup she did a great job. sarah, u did it...keep it up. u wanna more details of our journey back...ha...here's some for u then...on the expressway, 3 young ladies were lk so excited with L giving the most instructions. P juz sat behind n enjoyed the ride. ha...Princess S was so nervous. most of the time, she was lk screaming "oh manz, i'm so slow...i'm crawling...it's 50...70...80..."n when it's 90, she went "oh god, pls help me" n guess wat she hit a 100...other details, go ask her. haha...well i made it hm so she's a safe driver...it juz feels so gd to be driven ard...sobz...dun think i can haf my hands on the wheels soon...sigh...
other thoughts:
the most impt - i want gd grades! the anxiety in me as i wait for it to be known is juz so torturous. i couldnt enjoy myself all this while when i'm out. haven u notice it? oh well...at least "mum" n "xiao mei" understand how i feel. staying at hm helps to calm me dwn but going out w my dear frenz makes me happy. oh well...at the end of the day, i still live in my world of fear.
i caught a gurl staring hard at me in the washrm. hmmm but i dunno her...her stare was lk "hey, i think i know u. do u know me." but well i juz ignore her.
now: going to lala land...
later: dental, meet 5588 n mayb club (again...ha...)
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
4:01 am
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
Chocolate mint
Aft staying at hm since last fri, I agreed to meet shan juz now. we went for the gucci sales at paragon. haha...nothing catches my attn (wat a gd sign!) except for a handbag fr the black series. oops...hee...shall not mention anymore juz in case my fingers get itchy n i burn a hole in my pocket...
had potota wedges n chocolate mint cake. ha...oh yah n thai ice kachang too. did i get the spelling right? oops. we chatted n updated each other on many things. gd to meet up w this old fren of mine. she's so dear to me n we frenz for 10 yrs le. wow! made a trip to her hse to collect my bag. hee...stayed at her place for a while n chatted w her family. yup...we're so close to such extent tt i know her family. ha...n i haf a wonderful dad who fetched me hm...i love u, dad...u're the best! hmmm my bf muz be as nice as my dad lor...always taking gd care of me...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:37 am
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took this quiz which my dear fren, sarah has done and i am...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:21 am
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004
the cold cold rainy days
it has been rainning since yday. wat a nice weather to slp. so i did nothing these days except slp n wake up for meals. dad's hm these few days so haf to be gd gal. haha...but i'm always a gd gal. hoho...
nv see "chihhuahua" online these days. i miss "chihuahua". hope u're fine...
now surfing ard lor...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
8:34 pm
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Sunday, December 05, 2004
the family sunday
attended morning prayers, visit uncle zhou, woke up for lunch n out to do grocery shopping w mum n bro. fetched sis fr jap sch who was there to take her jap exam then it's dinner lor. it's one of the sundays whr the 6 seats at the dining table are occupied. yup it's a family habit of ours to be present for dinner every sunday. cos for the rest of the wk, not all will be ard at the same time. i'm out on wkdays, dad's late cos of meetings n sis in hall...so it juz has to be sunday...
so now u know, it's always a family sunday for me =)
how's ur wkend?
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:51 pm
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saturday@ah ma's hse
yup haven been to ah ma's hse for wks le so was there yday. juz a simple dinner n u could see tt happy look on her face. as she ages day by day, she talks less now except asking me to eat more every now and then. aft dinner, i was looking at uncle's london fotos. wat a nice place to visit. ha wait till i save enuf $ bah...oh yah...haven renew my passport yet...shall get it done next wk. hee...
tried slping early to make up for those late nights but in the end, i ended talking to mum. we talked abt many things esp life experiences. mum's different now. or at least i find her so. i rem those days when i was still in sch n she'll haf tt stern look on her face. but now...she's always smiling n more opened to talk abt the many issues in life. tt's great...at least i can seek more advice fr her now.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
2:31 pm
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Saturday, December 04, 2004
juz bored...
ha me hardly get to use the com cos bro is always playing his games...he's so nice to let me use now. hee...finally managed to change the song for my blog aft much attempt...hate the iwebmusic hosted ones cos they always dun haf the songs i want...in the past, i had to change fr mp3 to wma then host it before i can add to my blog but now it's juz mp3 format, host n add to blog. thus saving the trouble to convert. hee...now i can change song as n when i lk le.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
3:12 pm
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What Will I do - Cagnet
I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to
I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days 'till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you, it will be so right
If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
I'll be yours, you'll be mine
Ooh... What will I do? Ooh... What will I do?
Ooh... What will I do? Ooh... What will I do?
If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
I'll be yours, you'll be mine
Ooh... What will I do? Ooh... What will I do?
Ooh... What will I do? Ooh... What will I do?
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
3:11 pm
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an unforgettable experience...
It was T.G.I.F yday. did many things n met many ppl...
Which one of the following makes it an unforgettable experience? Is it...
(a) met elaine for tea, shopping n dinner
(b) met mr spaghetti and had a chat w him
(c) browsing at mph while waiting for sarah, linda, n justin
(d) @mdm wong: drank a little yet ended up with a spinning headache n sat at the platform most of the time. felt better after going outside for some fresh air. the gals were great (sarah n linda). they were with me then. thx, sweet ladies...went in again n this time danced to the music. yah i was really high high into the sky...dun worry i'm always fine aft a while. hee...age catching up...time to cut dwn on such activities...not gd for health...hate it when some inconsiderate ppl tried to squeeze their way thru on the platform. tt's our place (right young ladies...) in the first place so u better go far far away. next time wanna b on platform muz come early. haha...wei jie...thx for the ride hm...
(e) played w lola for a while...i used to be afraid of animals...but not anymore...ever since i know lola...she's so cute...
(f) cheese prata@201 w roy n justin...yah i was hungry...u muz haf know by now tt i always get hungry ard tt time (2+am)
(g) walked hm myself n reached hm safe n sound...actually chatted w justin on the ph as i walked hm...hee...thx...
(h) slept at 5am n was up at 8am...to...haf bfast w my family...
no prizes for the right ans...haha ;p
[Am I a spoilt brat?]
working hard towards being a
demure and resolute young lady...heehee...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:04 pm
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Friday, December 03, 2004
i woke up early today
aft saying gd bye to sarah on msn n b4 going to lala land, i received a sms fr oink oink. ha v surprised cos since he's in camp n it was already 2+ so how could he still be awake when it's supposed to be lights out. ha found out tt he's on duty so we chatted a while on the ph. heng he's off duty at 3am if not dun think i can tahan lor. ha...suan n suan n suan till we hung up. hey roy, u owe me a lunch lor. i'm such a gd gal...(^_^)
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:02 am
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Thursday, December 02, 2004
the slp all day me
another slp all day for me. yup feel so fresh now. now waiting for dinner to be bought back. haha...
someone posed me this qns some time ago. cant rem what exactly we were toking abt but somehow we came to this topic.
she: what do u look for in a r/s?
she: chemistry?
she: material wise?
she: paper?
me: trust, communication
me: caring, loving, doting
she: yup but hard to find all in one
true it's difficult to find a all in one. it's not abt finding cos they're not readily available on shelves unlike the canned food on the supermarket shelves. once out of stock and the helpers will juz replenish with new ones. yah i know what i want and m definitely looking out for him. but the sweetest thing abt love is to fall w/o realising it. at least tt is wat i feel. someone who can make u laugh n forget the worries tt u haf at work. someone who can gif u a sense of security when u're with him. someone whom u need not be with everyday but he's still the one in ur heart, he's the first person u wanna say gd morning to when u open ur eyes and the last person on ur mind b4 u fall aslp. someone who's there to catch u when u fall. someone whom u can share ur joy with. oops...my list is getting longer. ha...
nvm abt my list. when i've found him, then i'll tell u more. u may be surprised tt he may not be the one i mention in my list. ha...as long as we're happy tog...the rest can be worked out i guess...
quote of the day: life is short. be happy.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
6:23 pm
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i hate to repeat myself
oh manz...was writing an entry earlier when the prog stop responding. nah...not in the mood to repeat wat i typed...argh...muz be all those games which bro installed tt caused the prob...sianz...yah i know tt i should be happy cos it's the hols now. but there's this heavy stone inside me tt i want to get rid of. sarah n shan will know wat is it. i'm praying hard...real hard...
time to get some lunch le...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
1:45 pm
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Wednesday, December 01, 2004
coffee@starbucks
off to meet sarah, roy n justin for coffee. yah the suan~ing session thus began. well was bullied by roy but he was bullied by us too. so we're quits. mixed a drink for him but he nv finish it. ha...try mango w iced coco w water w milk all mixed tog. ha...rnd 2 of supper was at S11 near my hse. they had ckn wings while me n sarah juz sat to watch tv. we left shortly aft. sarah took a cab hm while me n roy walked justin hm. so in the end i oni had one bodyguard walking hm w me instead of 2. ha...thx, roy...such a gd boy...too bad he's going back camp tmr. haha...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
2:24 am
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